me-time

i bummed at home last saturday and watched three movies in a row. (finally was able to spend time with myself after such a busy week). i enjoyed my "me-time" as always. i have been planning it for so many weekends but it was always postponed. so when i got the chance, i excitedly prepared the movies i wanted to watch. here's the list:

1. eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
2. p.s. i love you
3. kung fu panda

i know, the movies were all ancient. but im a cheapo that's why i didn't watch them in the moviehouse :D anyway, i had fun watching these flicks and learning at the same time. from how to erase one's memories of a failed relationship to moving on after losing someone you love to kung fu fighting..hehe. kidding aside, i got more insights and realizations from the kiddie movie kung fu panda compared to the adult ones :D so let me share to you my favorite lines/quotes from the movies.

from eternal sunshine...

Joel: Constantly talking isn't necessarily communicating.
Joel: I can't see anything that I don't like about you.
Joel: I wish I had stayed to. NOW I wish I had stayed. I wish I had done a lot of things. I wish I had... I wish I had stayed. I do.
Joel: I can't remember anything without you.

from p.s. i love you...

Holly Kennedy: I don't want to make any mistakes.
Gerry Kennedy: Then you're in the wrong species, love. Be a duck.

Gerry Kennedy: If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you

from kung fu panda...

Oogway: There are no accidents.
Po: There is no charge for awesomeness... or attractiveness.
Oogway: Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present.
Oogway: One often meets his destiny on the road he takes to avoid it.
Shifu: Obeying your master is not weakness!
Mr. Ping: There is no secret ingredient!You just have to believe there is.

someone started my day right

this morning when i woke up, i was carrying a heavy heart. i didn't want to go to office. i just want to curl up in my bed and do nothing but sleep. it's not because i lack sleep, its just that i don't feel like doing anything at all. i told God that He needs to motivate me because i know i need to go to work. and as always, He heard me. :D He told me i need to fix something to make my day right. :D

we ended our conversation last night in a "not so good" mood. you know i hate that. you know i hate how you try to joke that way. you know i hate it when you don't choose your words properly. but your insensitivity got over you and you blurted it out again. and i hated you all the more :p

but i also know that i can just tell you anything. i know i can always be myself when we talk. i know you'd always listen even if i nag. i know you always find it cute when i try to quarrel you.haha :p (mao siguro cge ka pangaway..hmp!)

im writing this because we are now okay. because i know you planned to call me tonight. because you woke up to talk to me even if you are so sleepy and you even try not to sound sleepy at all. and simply because i know you will read this.

this is just my way of saying thank you... for all we've been through, for all that you've done and for all that you gave. i know we still have a long long way to go. i just want you to know that wherever life would take us, i will be forever grateful for you.

changes...kausaban...pagbabago

we're on the road
we move from place to place
and oftentimes when i'm about to call it home
we'd have to move along
life is a constant change...
(by: jose mari chan)

i'm now in my new seat in the office...where people could now see me doing nothing. i was already very comfortable in my old cube with the window behind me, where i could see the skycrapers of singapore. the view was my resting sight after hours of facing the pc but those moments are gone now. im now disappointedly sitting near the door, beside our hr manager. such an agony :(

next week, 2 more additional staffs will start working with us. i was excited when my boss told me that they were all females but my excitement faded away when i knew they are of the same nationality with the rest. i was hoping they would hire another filipina but still they stick to hiring their kababayan. :( oh well, it might be a chance for me to get to know their culture more, love their food, and maybe soon get used to their smell :( but im not so sure if i could handle the latter. i'd be sitting by the way to the most smelly new staff in the office. huhu..help!

indeed change is the only constant thing in the world. as i look back to the things that had been, i could not actually believe how bravely i handled the changes in my life here in singapore. i remembered that i came here armed only with confidence that i could get a job easily, which thank God i did. i then started to believe that everything was falling into place only to realize that it was the start of something heart-breaking. few months after, my heart was broken by someone who taught me to believe in fairytale. my world then started to crumble, was left alone and experienced the most painful break-up. i then transferred to two different houses in less than two months which was very stressful. and while doing all those, i was also trying my best to pick up my broken self. thank God again, i succeeded and finally whole.

though the changes that i have experienced were all heart-wrecking, i am still grateful. because i now realized that i am strong emotionally, mentally and spiritually. i also realized that i don't need someone to complete me simply because no one else can. i can be whole and happy as long as i decide to be one.

my discoveries...my passion

i had a blast and blessed weekend last June 28-29. i spent it with SFC for our discovery weekend retreat in batam, indonesia. it was my first time in the place and it was my first to join such retreat. i was already expecting fun, laughter and excitement because we were all geared up for the presentations and talks.

during our preparation week, i was really telling myself that i will make the most out of the experience. i was excited to share my talent, to enjoy the competition, to meet new friends and to discover more of myself and others. indeed, all went well and i was having the time of my life.

the talks and speakers were all inspiring. they shared about discovering one's purpose, one's passion, one's pleasure, one's pain and one's power. the talk about passion hit me real hard. i was asking myself what my passion really is. i reflected on the question and searched the deepest portion of my heart to give me an answer. then this is what i came up with...


i know my drawing is sooo kindergarten (pasensya na..hehe), this is all what my little artistic brain can think of. anyway, allow me to explain it so i can give justice to my masterpiece. hehe. that is me giving love to others. that is my passion. giving love does not mean romantic love but selfless love by serving my family, friends and the community for the glory of my great God. through the years, i have realized and discovered that my passion is service. i grew up serving others. everyone close to me could attest to that. people back home even convinced me to run for barangay captain. but that kind of service is not my niche. i know i can still serve others without holding an important post in the government. in everything i do, its always about what makes other people happy. i admit that sometimes i do get drained and tired then i become selfish. but God would always give me the strength to continue on and He has been really faithful to His promises. i told Him in return that i will continue to serve His people thru my talent, my treasure and my time. in my heart, i only want to make Him happy.

aside from discovering my passion, i also discovered another talent of mine. that i can actually take beautiful pictures...hehe. i was just there with mixie, pointing and shooting any view. so here's some of my practice shots :D




and oh by the way, have i mentioned that our team won?hehe. oh yeah we were the over-all champion!maybe because our team's name is RED POWER!o dba, name pa lang, champion na champion na!hehehe :D we are Ready, Empowered, Disciples...goooo RED POWER! (can't get over our battlecry :D )

vague

my mind is flying...going nowhere.
mixed up emotions
excited, anxious, happy, joyful

i want to bask on these feelings for as long as i can.
i don't want this to end.
i want it to be forever.
but i know forever is crucial.
forever is not real.

because forever means pain too.

my mind is flying...going nowhere.