Those Friends.

is it me or is it them? sometimes i wonder if i am normal or otherwise.

i used to regard myself as someone friendly and such a people-pleaser. yes, i care a lot but sometimes i fail to notice that i am going overboard between the friendly care and the not-so-friendly-care. i am reminded, everytime, a guy close friend would act strange than his usual self.

i have a few good and close friends from the male specie. i am still even friends with my exes. i like having these kind of friendship with the opposite sex because they are easy to deal with. but it does not mean i don't love my girls, i do, believe me. its just that there are things i am comfortable to discuss with the boys than with the girls coz i get that certain kind of comfort i need. but sadly, these people are slowly drifting away. even my best friend is on silent mode. and the latest - a guy close friend, suddenly shifted gears and perhaps indirectly telling me to stop bugging him with my nonsense.

call me paranoid coz i am not denying it. its because when it comes to friends, i get over-sensitive. i take issues like these by heart even to the point of complicating the teeny-weeny bits just so i could reach the root. i try to over-evaluate and over-analyze which i know is bad for my health and for my relationships but almost always, i can't help it. i know its like im shooing them away but if they are really true friends, supposedly they won't mind right?