Some Things.

i will be turning 28 in a few days and my birthday plans didn't turn out the way i wanted it to be. i've been feeling a bit nervous, worried, guilty, happy, sad and anxious all at the same time. is it because i planned not to prepare at all for the trip? but i booked my ticket months ago and was really giddy that finally, i will be travelling alone in a place i haven't been to. i decided not to plan because i want to take on an adventure. i want to land on that country appreciating every little thing. but sadly, it will not happen this time. maybe next. let's see.

this week is Mario's last week of his tourist visa and the worry-freak in me is starting to show up. what's keeping me still and calm is the hope that God will grant our heart's desires. truly, He will! we will apply for extension!

when i went home to Cebu last last weekend, i saw how my grandmother was suffering in that hospital bed. i have to hold back my tears but i did cry. at some point, i just want to pull off all the tubes connected to her so she can rest. it was such a depressing and hopeless situation *sobs*

yes, this month is my birthday month and i'm poor! teeehhheee! i'm sure blessings will pour out from heaven and earth *grin*. it might not be financially but i know it will make me happy.